How can someone like you become this ?! Its makes me go crazy to see you like this, it has to stop !
You use to be happiest person i know, you were full of life, you were always positive no matter what and you could laugh about anything. You always had that wonderful smile on your face, you hardley never frowned, you were nice and generous to everyone and never wish to actually hurt someone. You always had that little sparkle in your eyes and you smile was so conferting. With you i would have the craziest nights and days and the funnest time ever. You were the one i could talk to and know that you would always listen and understand. However since that day he broke your heart i honestly think you have changed and not in a good way... You are complaining, and always looking at the negative sides of life, its almost as if you dont want to feel better. You never want to go out , never to have fun. Also since that day you have become some sort of maniac always wanting everything to be so fucking clean and you also are like that for your grades, its like as if you are trying to replace him by some sort of addiction ! When we see you have a fake smile and you always stare into space... i know its hard for you but to life you life like this is not going to make anything go better you will end up by become depressive that you are going to want to kill yourself, this maybe harsh to say but its the horrible truth. You have to admit it to yourself and let go , forget him, its not going to be easy and it will hurt but its better to let it hurt for while than yo let it hurt forever.